Response:

I’m not sure you have come to terms with your feelings for this man.  It’s not a typical reaction to feel heartbroken because you didn’t say goodbye to a man you only admire professionally. If he has romantic intentions toward you as you believe, then if you offer friendship to him after being rebuffed will most likely think you are also romantically interested in him as well.  If he is sexually attracted to you, then he probably isn’t interested in being friends with you right now.

Love,

Deepak